truth = hole in the heart, but also = relief…

damn it… yea true, it’s really hurts when a knife pierce through your heart and it was piercing it through slowly… but, finally, the knife is out… out from whr it shouldn’t be in the first place…

relief? relaxed? released?… watever it is, i m not bothering anything anymore… yea, that’s rite… bad past, is the way to good future…

yea, i know about everything nw, and yea it really hurts a bit jus now… but then, good frens around who know who i m really was around when i really need them… chui king was the one who really went through wit me everything… really appreciated it and if ever she need my help, i will sure help even if i need to sacrifice something…

no one is better than your own family and the closest fren  u hav around you… sometimes is not even the one who might be your lover… nt afraid to speak wat i feel now.. hate me, dislike me, hav hatred on me, watever it is, i don care anymore…

hereby, i wanna say thx to all the frens around me… chui king and evon was had really helped me so much waking me up from those issues…

thr are some whom i noe wanted to help me but really thank them also for thinking and caring for me…

now i m officially released from watever it was and concentrate fully on my exam wit my frens…

Confused, Frustrated, Pissed, etc……

ARGH…. Wat’s wrong wit me??

aren’t u not satisfied wit yourself jack??? u hav so much frens around you who are much better and cares for u. y on earth do u still wanna think of such things??? it’s over means it’s over… bringing up unhappy past is not the way to live happily… forgiving the past and move on is the way for happiness…

damn it… y cant i jus leave it and concentrate on studies?? wat is that important??? or m i jus being too sensitive??? wat the heck is this?? i m getting more and more frustrated when it comes to this.

LET it GO!!!! these devils are jus flying over my head everyday and every second…

help me pls GOD… how can i stop these devils flying around without letting them getting wat they want from me…??

 

What another sem…

Woah, this sem has had a lot of eventful things that happened…

But wat i really wanna release from inside my heart is, having an end in a relationship really wont make ur life that simple especially one of ur trusted fren is still in a relationship wit the one whom is a fren of ur ex.

well, probably is jus my jealousy that hav conquer my mind till i cant take it. well, yea, it’s tough to handle such situation wat more during the exam period. yea, i was pissed wit my fren, i m not happy wit it. but come to think of it, why do we need to concentrate on such matters when u still hav so many frens who care and noe u better.

in such times, i really thank a few frens who really was supporting me and comfort me for this tough times even though they hav their exams which was in a few days. chui king was really the one whom i really wanna thank the most, she accompanied me and talk to me when i was so upset bout matters and talk me over it. my uni frens, evon, helena and vannessa all talk me through this matters as well. not forgetting, my ex roommate, rui yang who really no matter wat wakes me up from those stupid issues.and of course, lesley who really care for me so much as well…jasmine as well, even she is in the States, when i skype her, she will still talk me through some matters… i really thank god for all these frens around me. without them, i m no one. if not for them, i would hav jus did something stupid and let the devils win the battle.

anyway, in conclusion, i still do not know anyone who had backstab me and i really do not wanna noe who. wat i can onli say is i m happy to hav a few frens who really would jus comfort and wake u up from all these stupid devils that wanna conquer your feelings.

in all, these frens hav already safe my life. they really are really frens when i need someone around. and i swear to god, when they need me, i will be  there even if  i need to sacrifice something…

here, i do not wanna say who,  i hope those  who gave me some bad memories would jus giv me a break and don bother me for a moment. i don think these people will be seeing this blog, but i pray to god, pls jus giv me time to finish my exam without these matters bugging me for the moment.

ps: pls do not simple make assumptions on watever i hav typed, it may be very confusing, but it’s my own meaning

a time of memories that had jus passed by and to be remembered…

woah… it’s been a while since i blog…

this time round, again not a really good news either, after the death of a fren of mine, i got into a relationship wit a girl. well, we started off kinda good and we were happy together i guess.

i do not wanna elaborate the long story, but it jus did not last for even a month. probably i hav done something that had made her made such decision, but yea, we ended jus before one month. it was a mutual understanding that the separation happened. probably i was jus not the type of guy who she was looking for and i was jus too ‘excited’ being in a relationship. *haha*…

in the end, that’s wat happened. but we had some good times together even though the time was short being together. we had many first times doin different things and visiting different places. *pls don think something bad*

erm, again, i really appreciated the time we had together and the moments we went through. i hope we could still be good frens and continue a good friendship.

even though we could not be together, but i still love her and would be thr for her when she needs someone.

and oh yea, if u were wondering if i would be ashamed to let ppl noe bout breaking ups and posting it online? ans is NO. I always respects people’s decisions and will not be ashamed of anything of wat i did. if i ever did anything wrong i will change and if i did anything that is shameful i will learn from it. for those who tease and make fun on others failures or setbacks, u all are onli one piece of junk in the pile of rubbish. and get a life if  u hav nothing to do other than teasing on others failures.

below is jus a pic of us together… it’s all now memories…memories that i will never forget and will cherish…

 

 

Jack and Jia Jia

Shocked!!!

this is real one shocking news for me…

one fren of mine, choo jian yi got invovled in an accident and is now in kinda life and death situation… the emotional situation is so tense. out of a sudden this things happen. it’s such a bad news to all.

anyone who noes him i hope we hold hands in our heart and pray for his recovery and those who don noe him pls do help pray as well, as the more people who help pray, the better it is.

in the name of jesus i pray that my fren choo jian yi will be able to overcome this situation and be strong. eventhough he is not a believer, i pray he will still be healed by your mighty power in your mighty hands. everyone who noes him i noe is praying for him and i wan to be prat of the prayer. i uphold this man unto ur mighty hands that you will bless him and heal him from the current situation and bring him bac to his closest frens and family. in the name of jesus i pray. AMEN!!!